“Para maiba naman”. Loving someone has never been easy specially if you are an expat or OFW.
Admit it, “maraming kabit, nangangabit at di katanggap tanggap na relasyon ang nagiging paraan upang makaiwas sa kalungkutan.”
But i will never discuss the issues on morality but rather I will try to explain the pain that everybody seems going through each time they had a relationship here, away from our families.
First, all of us (including me) that having a relationship here would not last that long. “Kahit mahal mo ang tao, kapag nag-resign yan, nalipat ng job site o kaya ay nag end-of-contract ay mag isa ka na lang iiyak sa pagtulog mo.”
Painful isn’t it? But more people would say “di bale ng magmahal at masaktan, basta naging masaya.”
But sometimes, fate would try to test your love unexpectedly. “Lovelife or career?” These are the options one person must make. “Akalain mo bang main-love ka at magkaroon ka ng karelasyon kung kelan ka pa naman papalipat ng job site. O e di atungal ka kung lovelife ka o career?”
Then, there would be a lot of people who would tell you “Ang tanga-tanga mo naman kasi, ang laki na ng perang naubos mo dahil sa kanya.”
“Madalas”, they are your friends. “Concern lang naman siguro sila sa akin” is an often response.
Friendship is vital while living alone. “Sila ang magdadala sa iyo sa ospital, sila ang mag hihintay sa iyo kapag ang tagal mong mamili ng ipamimili sa Carrefour at sila din ang tatadyak sa iyo kapag nagpaka-tanga kang tuluyan.”
But people at times need intimate relationships that friends can never provide.
“Alam mo, iba ka… kaibigan kita pero mahal na yata kita.”
Not quite sure? I heard this once before. “Pero marami pa rin yata ang pumipili na magpakatanga na lang kahit masakit.”
Some may say that “pera-pera lang ang pag-ibig ng mga OFW”
“Panandaliang kaligayahan”
“Pantanggal kati”
“Para kumita ng malaki”
…and so on and so forth.
But for those people who chose to love and be not affected by those who claim that they are more intelligent by not getting hurt and not falling in love…
… and for those people who felt the pain and finally found someone who really cares for them…
“Mabuhay!”
“Para sa mga sawi pa rin hanggang ngayon, i-download nyo na lang ang kanta ng FOJ!”
Hurting Inside by F.O.J aka Vanna Vanna
There are moments
That I feel I just can’t go on
Wishing that you were here
Oh how I wish
You holding me close to you
Whispering those words
I love you
I love you but baby you’re not there
Like you were before
No words of love to hear
Can’t smile anymore
Is it finally over
I can’t wait any longer
Do you ever think of me
Coz baby can’t you see
That I’m hurting inside
All the tears I can’t hide
Life is never easy without you baby
I want you to know that I’m hurting inside
The pain is deep inside
I can’t mend it
Wishing you would come to ease the pain
In my heart
Coz lovin’ you just hurts deep inside
Empty moments
They just fill every part of me
Since you’ve been away from me
Give me a chance to say how much I care
Hold me close to you and let me through
But baby you’re not there
Like you were before
No words of love to hear
I can’t smile anymore
Is it finally over
I can’t wait any longer
Do you ever think of me
Coz baby can’t you see
That I’m hurting inside
All the tears I can’t hide
Life is never easy without you baby
I want you to know that I’m hurting inside
The pain is deep inside I can’t mend it
Wishing you would come to ease the pain
In my heart
Coz lovin’ you just hurts deep inside
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aww… natamaan ako dun ah..
beautiful post, my puso.
let’s be blog friends, I’m Shiela.
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